"Women received their loved ones back again from death. But others trusted God and were tortured, preferring to die rather than turn from God and be free. They placed their hope in the resurrection to a better life." (Hebrews 11:35)
These are all women who received from God, but not all received the same thing.
Never compare your blessing with someone else's.
Try as you may, there is just no means of measuring. When the time arrives that you can measure the love of God, then you can go on and compare blessings with others.