Who is wise and understanding among you? Let him show by good conduct that his works are done in the meekness of wisdom. (James 3 :13)
Perhaps you have envisoned what kind of person you would like to be. If you are having trouble imagining a more mature, more godly you, read the red letters of your New Testament and meditate on the Son of Man.
There you will find your Maker’s dream and destiny for you.